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[ is it worth to start over? ]

the irony, was that i never intended to fall in love with you, because i thought i didn't want to be crumbled again. i was done. i didn't think i could take any more damage. but then you suddenly came into my life. you didn't do much, really. you could just stand there doing your things and i would still say that you were the most beautiful person. i mustered up my courage to talk to you. lord, i thought this was the life that i wanted. i started liking you and day by day i got attached to you. i knew this was just temporary but i still wanted to adore the moment i shared with you. but, life is not a life if we got everything we wanted, right? just right after i felt like i couldn't live without you, you put a bomb inside my heart. it kept ticking, making me choose; stay and get destroyed or leave without a trace. this was the most terrifying thing. i knew from the start that i was not lovable like anyone else. i knew it. it was my problem all along, wasn't it?

— Pentanol
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